Missing the Water

It hasn't been often that I have thought that the Lord was speaking to me directly--not aloud but clearly in my mind--but there have been a few times. Many years ago when I lived a half-mile from my parish church, I sensed the Lord telling me that one day I would not have access to the Eucharist, so I better take advantage while I could. In the 24 years that we lived in that house, there were years when we went to Mass everyday, and there were hiatuses. This must have been during one of the latter. I wondered for a long time what that could mean. Why would I not be able to receive Communion? Then, when we moved to our current home, which is 13 miles from the nearest church, and we only had one car which my husband took to work, I thought that must be it. We could still go to Mass on Sunday, but not during the week.

 But now.

I never imagined a time when most people could not go to Mass. It really makes Azariah's (he of the the three young men in the fiery furnace) prayer from Tuesday's first reading from the book of Daniel come alive:

  For your name’s sake, O Lord, do not deliver us up forever, or make void your covenant. Do not take away your mercy from us, for the sake of Abraham, your beloved, Isaac your servant, and Israel your holy one, To whom you promised to multiply their offspring like the stars of heaven, or the sand on the shore of the sea. For we are reduced, O Lord, beyond any other nation, brought low everywhere in the world this day because of our sins. We have in our day no prince, prophet, or leader, no burnt offering, sacrifice, oblation, or incense, no place to offer first fruits, to find favor with you. But with contrite heart and humble spirit let us be received; As though it were burnt offerings of rams and bullocks, or thousands of fat lambs, So let our sacrifice be in your presence today as we follow you unreservedly; for those who trust in you cannot be put to shame. And now we follow you with our whole heart, we fear you and we pray to you. Do not let us be put to shame, but deal with us in your kindness and great mercy. Deliver us by your wonders, and bring glory to your name, O Lord.  Daniel 3:34-43

I feel like I am starving, although that is a bit hyperbolic since I went to Mass last Sunday, and probably would not have gone to daily Mass this week. And, thankfully, there are many opportunities to pray along with Mass online. We have been watching 12:05 p.m. Mass at the Shrine of St. Martin de Porres.

I've also found this article from The Catholic World Report on fasting from the Eucharistic by Joseph Ratzinger very helpful. Thanks to my friend Amy for linking to this.

I would like to think that once we can return Mass, I will not take it for granted, but I don't know. It's so easy to be the person who sees her face in the mirror and then goes away and forgets what she has seen. But I have the intention of not forgetting, and I am praying for that grace.

AMDG